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I am an adult and this page's content may reflect this. The nightmares described on this page may range from basic stressful dreams to nightmares about violent, graphic or triggering situations. Some nightmares may be not safe for work and will be marked by a warning icon and have a content warning attached.
Please take note.

Welcome to the darker, natural alter ego of my dream diary.

As briefly mentioned on my home page, I am facing rather debilitating mental health issues. In 2019, I got formally diagnosed with CPTSD at 20 years old. In 2025, right after my 26th birthday, I got formally diagnosed with ASD and ADHD. I also have two other diagnoses that impact by life in significant ways that I'll keep private for now.

I feel like this is necessary context to understand the recurring themes and symbols that may appear in my nightmares. Not all nightmares here are results of mental health challenges though, and anyone is free to interpret them in their own personal way.

My humble nightmare diary is here in the hopes of inspiring others to create something: Maybe a situation, a place or a person that I saw while asleep will resonate with you. Please do not try psychoanalyse me or my nightmares. They're figments of my subconscious, not here to be explained or dissected, but here to be enjoyed like a nice, uncomfortably surreal cup of tea.

"There's a difference between actual dreams and remembered dreams. Even the ones recorded in my dream diary are different from the real thing. The dreams reconstructed by the artists that read them are different as well... Don't try to analyze them or read too much into them; just enjoy this book as if walking through a dream."

- Hiroko Nishikawa, on Lovely Sweet Dream